Since I was 13, I knew I was attracted to older guys

Personal account of a freelance photographer, originally from his private blog. Triggered by a petition for the castration of pedophiles.

Source: SOLR correspondence

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From a young age, at least since I was 13, I knew I was attracted to older guys. My sexual fantasies always revolved around big, macho men taking care of me.

I’ll never forget the day when my class went swimming and we all threw our gym teacher into the pool with his clothes on. I must have stared at him for over an hour while he sat half-naked, drying on the bench. I thought his hairy chest was one of the most beautiful things I’d ever seen.

I was sexually active when I was about 13 or 14. First it was child’s play, but when I was 15 it was full-blown sex with older boys. At 17, I had a relationship for about a year with a man who was 27. We had sex all the time. I also came out at that age. We had an open relationship, so I also had a lot of sex with other men, almost always older than me.


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