I love him and I know that he loves me

Letter from 16-year-old Darrel to NAMBLA.

This report is from the publication ‘Boys speak out!’ by the American man/boy love advocacy organization NAMBLA. The book can be ordered on the organization’s website.

Source: Boys speak out on man/boy love; NAMBLA; fourth (enlarged and expanded) edition; July 1996

I Love Him, and I Know That He Loves Me

The first time that I ever had a relationship with a man was when I was 11. I’m now 16. It was nice. I met this man through a friend. It started out kind of weird. I moved in with him, going everywhere with him, helping him out. He helped me out, and I kept on living with him. I go up to see him every weekend, and everything just built up.

We have had our little arguments here and there, but we have worked it out and everything. I feel OK about him. I love him and I know that he loves me. This makes me feel good. It makes me feel good inside.

Relationships beween men and boys are OK. I know quite a few men and boys who have relationships, and they all seem OK. The men and boys who are involved in the relationships that I know are nice.

I can’t let anything happen to him; it would really hurt me. All that I know is that if anything does really happen to him, I feel sorry for the person who does it, because I will be after him, to hurt the person, just like the way that they hurt me.

I see myself basically as bi-sexual. Bi-sexuality means to me being half gay and half not. I have girlfriends. The relationships with them are also nice.

New Jersey